Hunter gets another little wave of guilt, this time over being surprised that Hunter wouldn't take it away. Of course he wouldn't, he's kind, Yellow-- Edwin already knew that.
[Y-yes. I know, I do, I just--]
He hesitates, trying to figure out how to ask what he wants to in a way that makes sense.
[I... There's... It feels like-- It feels like if I... use it before I'm done... paying for what I did... I'll ruin it. That it will feel bad after that.]
"Well. You don't have to use it," he says calmly. "I'm not going to make you, or force you to use it. But I'm not going to take the option away from you - that's all."
He would feel better if Hunter did, he thinks. If he had to earn it back somehow, if he had to deserve it again. He's not sure how to explain that, though.
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[Y-yes. I know, I do, I just--]
He hesitates, trying to figure out how to ask what he wants to in a way that makes sense.
[I... There's... It feels like-- It feels like if I... use it before I'm done... paying for what I did... I'll ruin it. That it will feel bad after that.]
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[Okay. I-- Yes, I understand.]