[ Edwin also desperately wants to do... something. It's such a relief to see John, to be himself and be back in their home and to find his brother right when Edwin himself was thinking about John. He twines a handful of ribbony tentacles around John's arm, clinging to that since he's not sure what would happen if he tried to touch the mask. ]
John. You're okay. Are you okay? Did you fall off the ship?
I was a cat. [A pause.] I wasn't really a cat. I don't remember much of what I was before that, but it was something dangerous. Something dangerous and strong, that they couldn't kill, so they caught me instead.
I'm glad you're all right. [He draws himself down by his tentacles until he's not-quite-resting his crown on John's wrist. He doesn't know what will happen if he actually did that, but it seems like a bad idea to find out.] I don't like not remembering you.
I wish there was a way to make us remember if we can't. I... liked the breach... The carnival. I liked being... able to see what another kind of life would be like. What I could be like, if things were different, if things had been... If I had been a person from the beginning. I didn't like everything, I hated after that I was stuck in a human body. But.
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John. You're okay. Are you okay? Did you fall off the ship?
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No. I was here, myself. You and Arthur both did, though.
[ And he fucking hated it.]
I'm... fine. Astarion decided to be an asshole. I couldn't go out without a body.
...I bought a lot of books and spent the time learning the magic from them in between shopping for supplies.
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I missed everyone.
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[He makes a soft, awkward sound.]
I liked it, there. Here was... lonely.
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I don't like it either. I don't... I really don't like it. I don't like thinking about what would happen if it got taken again and didn't come back.
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I feel the same.
...want to talk about anything else?
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Are you enjoying it?