SPRING BREEAKKKKK;

[howtheyshine]

He's in the dark. He's in the dark again. A pocket of alive-darkness that he can feel the edges of, he can feel the void that waits.

Well hello there, Yellowhead. We haven't been formally introduced. I'm....

Call me Carmichael.

The laugh that bubbles through the name makes Yellow's soul creep.

You're Kayne.

A silence ripples outward from the nothing-space the voice takes up, a silence deeper than the emptiness of John's unoccupied body. Yel-- Edwin, Edwin curls in on himself, tightening into a tiny knot of spectral energy.

He said the wrong thing, he said the wrong thing, he's going to get hurt--

And how, my little poppet, did you know that.

I-I...

Actually. Know what? Doesn't matter. Sorry to pull the plug on that little experiment so abruptly, but see, I made a deal with your better half--

John!

He can't stop himself. He realizes how stupid the flare of hope is a moment later, when that oppressive empty cold bleak dead cold silent dark silent dark comes creeping back up between him and the voice of Kayne.

I made a deal with him to get him back to Arthur, which means you needed to clear the way.

Of course, I can't be bothered to babysit you.

So you've got a couple of options, here, kid.

Well, two. Which is more like one. Unless you want to go back to the Dark World, in which case--

No-- No, please, I don't care what you want, I'll do it, just--

Okay, okay, Jeeee-sus, stop groveling. It took John a few good centuries to get to that point.

Yellow goes quiet, cowed.

There's this guy I want you to meet. He's like the worst version of Arthur got all the color sucked out of it and given eternal life.

Wh... What?

Well, technically you did meet him. I guess now he gets a chance to meet you, since he's so fucking eager to lick the feet of a god.

The unhinged laughter rings in Yel-- Edwin, Edwin, Edwin's ears as he feels the world get abruptly smaller and his senses get stripped back to shadows.

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[howtheyshine]

I know, but-- Larson won't care what happens to them. I have to. I have to care. I have to-- someone has t-to--

If he gets back to the barge, he can bring them back. Anyone he's going to hurt, anyone he's going to ruin on Larson's orders. He can bring them back with Hunter's deal. Even if it means...

Even if it means being stuck as a driftless in-between god until he can earn himself another. Or until John does.

I'm still responsible, e-even if... it's forced. I have to-- to--

He's not sure how to put it.

I have to honor what happens to them. E-even if I wouldn't do it without being... threatened.

I... was the King in Yellow. I don't remember, but I know what he did to people. It was his choice, but... saying it's not my fault because Larson is threatening me... I-I don't want to be someone who doesn't care when people are in pain again. I don't... want to make choices that take me... closer to him.

[greatoldjohn]

John is very quiet for a long time, but he makes sure that Edwin can feel him, knows he's there. He doesn't want him to doubt that for even a moment.

There's a difference between taking responsibility and accepting fault. You can care, and you can honor them. You're right. It's important.

But taking the blame leaves the person who's fault it really is off free.

Larson sounds like a dickhead, but he's a human being. He has the capacity to be better. He could choose not to.

His tone gets harder.

Know. Remember. Honor them properly.

And wait for your chance.

[howtheyshine]

It's bolstering, comforting, it makes him feel a little more sane, and suddenly Edwin is more determined than ever to get back to the barge somehow, more determined than ever to help John be free along with himself.

You're just like my brother. Y-you are my brother. If-- If you want to be.

[greatoldjohn]

Brothers...

It's obvious he's considering the word as much as the concept, but the connection between them is what it is. It's honest if it's anything, and if he doesn't want Edwin to feel alone, he has to keep it flowing.

And the flow is longing. It's been rough since he got back. Really really rough.

I...

I don't know how much I'm like him. It sounds as if he's... he sounds as if he's much farther along in becoming human than I... will ever be am. But I

I want

I want to be your brother.

A pause before-

If you're sure.

[howtheyshine]

He's had more time than we have.

It's Edwin's turn to pour out faith, belief in John--both versions.

I'm sure.

There's a haze of weary amusement, but: I'm not sure about much, but I'm sure about that.

[greatoldjohn]

All right.

Then I...

I'll see what I can do about Collins and, after a moment, And about telling Arthur about you.

[howtheyshine]

Hope. "Hope" is the thing with feathers--

(Red feathers and one kind eye--)

W-we can do this. We can.

[greatoldjohn]

We can.

That means you too.

[howtheyshine]

It's there between them, the hope Edwin can't justify but won't try to smother. He needs it. They both do.

Yes.

...I'm the older brother this time.

DECLARATIVE, DEFINITIVE, MATTER SETTLED.

[greatoldjohn]

...I don't think that switches.

[howtheyshine]

With a massively unwarranted degree of consideration:

How long have you been John now?

[greatoldjohn]

...why?

Skeptical!

[howtheyshine]

Because I'm-- six months old now.

Five. He's five months old technically.

So I might be older than you.

[greatoldjohn]

I remember millions of years of existence.

Not gonna catch him!

[howtheyshine]

W o w.

Me too! I meant--

Oh wait. He was still John during that second round of Horrors.

Shit.

...You really remember millions of years? How much of it as-- as Him?