"Yeah, of course!" His tone is warm, quietly excited, but there's a sudden and aggressive flash of delight through him, excitement at being able to teach Edwin something he knows and cares so much about. "It can be pretty difficult sometimes, there's a lot to learn, but- I think you might enjoy it!"
The delight and excitement lift his spirits, and the lift gets chased immediately by guilt.
[I want to. To help people. To learn how to help them. I-I know I could just... heal them, with the power I used to have. But... I'd like to learn what you care about. And how to when I don't have power.]
He's quiet for just long enough that he's clearly hesitating, but not long enough for Hunter to interject, quite.
Right, he should still technically punish Edwin for this, huh. He's pretty sure that Edwin understands, more and more each time, why killing people is bad, but there should still be a consequence for it.
"...for the next seven days, you're not allowed out of my sight." There's a firmness to the sentence, but it's not cruel, it's just- stating a fact. "You can be in your body if you want, or- in your crown, or in me - or if I can't, you can be with Jedao. But you're not allowed to be alone. And while you're with me, you can learn things. I'll teach you about human anatomy, and we can go to the library to find things for you to read while I'm asleep. Alright?"
It's not really an option, more like- checking if Edwin understands.
[I can-- I can still use my body?] He's startled, relieved, guilty, confused. Confused as much by his guilt and reluctance as he is by Hunter's generosity.
"I'm not going to take your body away from you," he says, his tone almost wary. "I want you to learn things that you can do with your forms, as they are right now, not take them away from you and make things harder. Like I said - I'm not gonna trap you, and that's what not having your body's gonna feel like. Right?"
Hunter gets another little wave of guilt, this time over being surprised that Hunter wouldn't take it away. Of course he wouldn't, he's kind, Yellow-- Edwin already knew that.
[Y-yes. I know, I do, I just--]
He hesitates, trying to figure out how to ask what he wants to in a way that makes sense.
[I... There's... It feels like-- It feels like if I... use it before I'm done... paying for what I did... I'll ruin it. That it will feel bad after that.]
"Well. You don't have to use it," he says calmly. "I'm not going to make you, or force you to use it. But I'm not going to take the option away from you - that's all."
He would feel better if Hunter did, he thinks. If he had to earn it back somehow, if he had to deserve it again. He's not sure how to explain that, though.
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[I want to. To help people. To learn how to help them. I-I know I could just... heal them, with the power I used to have. But... I'd like to learn what you care about. And how to when I don't have power.]
He's quiet for just long enough that he's clearly hesitating, but not long enough for Hunter to interject, quite.
[Wh... What happens now?]
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"...for the next seven days, you're not allowed out of my sight." There's a firmness to the sentence, but it's not cruel, it's just- stating a fact. "You can be in your body if you want, or- in your crown, or in me - or if I can't, you can be with Jedao. But you're not allowed to be alone. And while you're with me, you can learn things. I'll teach you about human anatomy, and we can go to the library to find things for you to read while I'm asleep. Alright?"
It's not really an option, more like- checking if Edwin understands.
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"I'm not going to take your body away from you," he says, his tone almost wary. "I want you to learn things that you can do with your forms, as they are right now, not take them away from you and make things harder. Like I said - I'm not gonna trap you, and that's what not having your body's gonna feel like. Right?"
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[Y-yes. I know, I do, I just--]
He hesitates, trying to figure out how to ask what he wants to in a way that makes sense.
[I... There's... It feels like-- It feels like if I... use it before I'm done... paying for what I did... I'll ruin it. That it will feel bad after that.]
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[Okay. I-- Yes, I understand.]